MARRIED & DIVORCED 7 TIMES (A REVERT SISTER'S STORY)🥀

I am a revert sister of 16 years alhamdulilah. I got married about 6 months after becoming Muslim and in hindsight I didn't know much about marriage and I had very little knowledge of Islam. My first husband was very practising maashAllah. He was 4 years older than me and was very passionate about upholding the sunnah. But I found this really overwhelming at the time and we clashed alot. He was fed up with my disobedience and I couldn't handle what I thought was extremism from him. I took the easy way out and insisted he divorced me. The marriage lasted a year and a half. In total I've been married and divorced 7 times. My marriages ended for various reasons and they weren't all my fault but I can also say that my lack of knowledge meant that I didn't understand the rights of a husband or even the rights of the wife. This was a major issue that impacted them all. I know there's alot of stigma attached to divorced sisters. Alot of the time we're seen as secondhand goods that are less than, which is confusing to me. We were in legimate and halal marriages that didn't work out so why should we be penalised or judged for that? Allah has allowed divorce out of necessity and there should be no shame in it (if you feared Allah). It shouldn't define your character or ability to have a successful marriage. I understand its hard to phathom how my marriages have failed 7 times. Although everytime I got divorced, I just wanted to protect my chastity so I got married again. It would have been too easy to fall back into my old lifestyle and I never wanted to run the risk of commiting zina. I'm 36 now and would really like to find the right husband and have children inshaAllah. Despite my track record, I'm still hopeful because ultimately this is in the hands of Allah. For the last year and a half I've been single and focusing on seeking knowledge and strengthening my relationship with Allah. I feel more empowered having studied marriage and focusing on tawheed. I'd say, any sisters newly reverted to Islam make sure you learn your deen and study marriage before getting into it; be prepared to make sacrifices and do thorough checks on suitors before you believe that classic line "he's a good brother". Knowledge is key. Once you have sound understanding of your rights you can't be taken advantage of and when you understand a husband's rights over you you can strive not to violate these. Success is by Allah; if you're looking for marriage or wanting to remarry after divorce; put your trust in Allah. Fear Him and He will make a way out for you from means that you could never imagine. -Anonymous Sister 🌷Sisters🌷Follow⤵️ https://t.me/SalafiSistersHomeschooling