Slowly, I started to masturbate as early as 18. And I was already exposed to bad women. By the age of 20, I already had my first sex with a prostitute. I wasn't

▪️My eyesight started to deteriorate. My vision became very weak. At the age of 22, I had to wear glasses. And a times my eyes kept releasing milky liquid-like tears. ▪️I used to memorize the Quran. In fact I memorized more than half of it. But within no time, I lost everything. ▪️My memory started to decrease. I used to be bright and intelligent in class, but I became stupid. My thoughts were crazy and corrupted ▪️At the age of 26 - 28 my mental health was touched. Because I became unintelligent like a baby. Simply instruction I could not understand. ▪️I got married by 30 years. Even after marriage, with my wife, but I still watch porn and masturbated. Slowly I started to lose my manhood. My penis can’t stand for good 2 mins. ▪️I lost my Imaan. I did not have any fear of Allah. I used to miss my salah. I became very prone to violence and crimes. Sin became normal. I lost everything. ▪️My wife left me. She said I m mentally unstable. That's true. Because I used to hallucinate sometimes. It is a sign of a mental disorder. ▪️I’m still addicted. I repented a million times, but after 1 month or so, I returned back to my porn addiction. ▪️I’m sharing my story with you the Muslims because I don’t want you to fall victims like me. I’m regretting every second of my life. And I will never forgive my relative who introduced me to pornography. If you are already watching porn, then stop, else, you cannot reverse the damage it will do to you. if you have not started watching, then don’t try. It is more addictive than cocaine and Heroin. I quit smoking and drugs easily, but I still can't quit porn. if you are a Muslim and you believe in Allah, please pray for me, may Allah change me to a better person. May Allah cleanse my soul. As I’m crying writing this, I hope you will look at my condition and take a lesson; السَّعِيدُ مَنِ اتَّعَظَ بِغِيْرِهِ May Allāh forgive us, protect us, our offspring, the Ummah & humanity at large from this disease. Ameen.” [end of quote] Another writes: "I would like to share a experience that could be spread in order to warn the masses. I will try to keep it short but first and foremost I would like ask Allaah ‘Azza Wa Jal to keep your and our intentions sincere and to be steadfast. I’m a practising Salafi for a few years now, around 25 years old, married for +- 3 years, living in the West. Before I was practising, I did many wrong things, and one of them was watching porn and doing all kind of physical actions that comes with it. Although I was and wanted to be a virgin until marriage, I kept watching these videos until marriage. I even kept watching this in my first steps/months into Salafiyah I knew it’s haram and a great sin, but still I kept doing it for like 2/3 times a week for a few years until I got married. And to this day, this munkar affected my mental state greatly in terms of intimacy and enjoyment of the spouse. I’m married to a beautiful, Salafi, wife. It’s a women where I can assure that her beauty is a kind of beauty many man would love to see in their wives. But still…. I’m not enjoying the intimacy because of this evil thing I kept doing a few years back. The desire and lust for ONLY my wife seems to be vanished after a few months into marriage. My mind is totally damashed by these pornographic images, the enjoyment is little, it takes a lot for me to get excited. Where I hoped as a young virgin man to enjoy my future spouse, and fantasised a lot about it, the reality showed me different.