The ill Effects of PORNOGRAPHY

Sharing as received ⤵️ ________ بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته I would like to share a experience that could be spread in order to warn the masses. I will try to keep it short but first and foremost I would like ask Allaah ‘Azza Wa Jal to keep your and our intentions sincere and to be steadfast. I’m a practising Salafi for a few years now, around 25 years old, married for +- 3 years, living in the West. Before I was practising, I did many wrong things, and one of them was watching porn and doing all kind of physical actions that comes with it. Although I was and wanted to be a virgin until marriage, I kept watching these videos until marriage. I even kept watching this in my first steps/months into Salafiyah I knew it’s haram and a great sin, but still I kept doing it for like 2/3 times a week for a few years until I got married. And to this day, this munkar affected my mental state greatly in terms of intimacy and enjoyment of the spouse. I’m married to a beautiful, Salafi, wife. It’s a women where I can assure that her beauty is a kind of beauty many man would love to see in their wives. But still…. I’m not enjoying the intimacy because of this evil thing I kept doing a few years back. The desire and lust for ONLY my wife seems to be vanished after a few months into marriage. My mind is totally damashed by these pornographic images, the enjoyment is little, it takes a lot for me to get excited. Where I hoped as a young virgin man to enjoy my future spouse, and fantasised a lot about it, the reality showed me different. I was on a average of 2/3 times a week. What about those that are doing it every day or even more? What about where everything is even more accessible? What about those who already entered many times into major Zina? I stayed as a virgin and yet it messes with my head to this day. I hope I was clear and you got the message, and maybe you can add some things more. Please send a warning out to the brothers and sisters of the community. I have the impression this isn’t stressed enough. The aftermath is grave indeed, I ask Allaah to forgive me and the ummah of Muhammad peace be upon him to forgive us for our mistakes, and to grant us tawbatanasuha. Because indeed, when Allaah and his Messenger forbid something, it is filled with hikmah. بارك الله فيكم